Monday, September 26, 2011

It's not just a song.....

I am now 5 weeks out of the hospital and 5 weeks on meds for this crazy heart arrhythmia.
I am grateful.
I am alive.
I am dizzy.
Everyday starts off fine.  Like a normal day used to start. 
Eyes open.
Covers back.
Feet hit the floor.
Punch the coffee button (now for 1/2 caff.....fully leaded sends me over the edge)
Then breakfast....which has to be eaten so I can take my meds. 
Then within the hour....I am dizzy.
High.....but not the kind I remember from my teenage years.
And if being dizzy and lightheaded weren't enough, add exhaustion.  The kind that isn't normal.
The kind that doesn't come from a hard days work.
Or from exercising.
This exhaustion is draining.
It's also ridiculous.
I mean....I used to have to get into "princess mode" to take a nap.
I had to be on my left side, with the covers up to my chin...just right.
The fan on.
The room darkened.
Now, I'm lucky if I make it off my face so as not to smother myself. 
Then I wake up.  Drool covered and my face marked with indentations from whatever I fell asleep on.

Exercise is out of the question. 
It brings on skipped beats and more light headedness.

Yes, I am grateful they caught this thing and that it can be treated.
I am looking forward to the day the atrial ablation can be done and I can move forward in life to no meds and no skipped beats.
I am also believing that the only dizziness I will experience in the future is from spinning on a dance floor.
And the only skipped beats come when I see my husband walk into the room.


  1. Crap! I had a comment all written then lost it!

    Mainly I wanted to say glad you're feeling better. At the same time I hope you continue to improve. Dancing with your hubby sounds like it could be just the right kind of medicine.

    SARK wrote a book, How to Change Your Life Without Getting Out of Bed, The Ultimate Nap book. I slept with it under my pillow for a couple of weeks but nothing happened. Guess you actually have to read it! I've never met a nap I didn't like!

  2. Merry Me...I have enjoyed the naps I've taken but it is a new kind of normal. Thanks for the happy wishes. I'll keep you posted. By the way, I love your blog!

  3. Friend... loved the song, but am sorry that it applies to you as it does. Hope you and your sweet husband have had time to dance, but I'm guessing not so much with everything! A different kind of dance! Love you much!

  4. Just wondering how you're doing.
    Better I hope!

  5. It's Christmastime and I'm hoping you're feeling tip top and full of joy.
    Happy Holidays

  6. Merry Me ~ Thank you so much for the drop in. Your comment pushed me to getting back on here and doing what I love....writing. I hope to feel tip top soon, but until then I am embracing it all.
    I hope this Christmas is full of happy memories.